July 27
*This one is a bit jumbled.
I’m sitting in the living room of someone’s house (might be Mom’s place) discussing dinner. It is late at night. O wants to try using some make-up that she has found… there are two low quality make-up kits here, looks like they were bought from one of those shopping channels online. As I look around I see there are a few things here that were purchased off a shopping channel. I tell O no, and explain that the lipstick will make her lips dry out and crack, she is better off with the chapstick stuff we bought for her before.
I’m laying on my stomach on the floor, talking about something we were supposed to figure out. There is a large, gray cat walking on my back… I can feel it’s paws dig into my back… no claws… just the pressure of the little feet. The cat can talk, it is saying that it has figured it out (whatever it is we were discussing) but it doesn’t want to tell the other two cats in the house. I feel it’s paws on the top of my head as it’s trying to balance… it’s back paws are at my shoulder blades. The paws slip to my left side and the cat rolls off my back, then springs back up and is rubbing under my chin and purring. The cat stops suddenly, and steps back… staring at a spot about 4 feet in front of us. The cat is backing up, explaining to me it can see a ghost. I look and see nothing, but the cat explains it can feel the presence of the ghost, and wants to leave. I shrug, and get up… carrying two laptops into a bedroom I place them on one of the twin sized beds in the room. The bed is unmade. I’m back in the living room explaining to S that I moved his laptops onto his bed.
*I’m in a hotel lobby with S, S’s brother (SB) and I believe SB’s wife (BW). We were going to go to the restaurant here for dinner, but it is very expensive and since this was a last minute decision we are trying to decide where else we should go. I look and see a lot of teenagers sitting at little round tables… their food is in those little boat shaped red and white checked paper trays… burgers, hotdogs, fries… that sort of thing. The food is from a little cafe that is on the other side of this hotel. I point it out to S.
Now we are in a car… I seem to be in the front and back seat at the same time. We are driving east along a road I recognize, going through a beach town. S is in the front passenger seat, SB is behind the wheel. The driving appears to be coming from the back seat, behind the passenger seat from BW. I mention that we can just go back to the main beach and get a burger… that would be fine with me and it would be fast. But we are headed the wrong direction. S tells BW to pull over at the bus stop over on the right. The curb curves in for the buses to pull out of traffic and stop. The car rolls to a stop next to the curb, and S and SB jump out of the car, running around to trade places. S will be driving because he knows the way and he can get us there faster. I move from the front seat to the back now, and I explain to BW where we are going to go. The car is traveling quickly now… I look around and see I’m in a compact car, in my mind I flash a picture of a green Geo Metro. We are driving quickly down a neighborhood street which ends in a dock to a lake or lagoon. You have to turn a sharp left at the end of the road to drive parallel to the water’s edge. S takes the corner too sharply. I was not paying attention to his driving, but I look out the window now (I’m sitting in the back, on the right) and see the edge of the dock is just below my window… way too close. I’m saying “Oh shit shit shit shit shit shit” and I grip the handle of the door. We are way too close to the edge, and turning from here will put the back end of the car off the dock. I hold on, hoping he can turn the car sharp enough to get us out of here. I’m willing that the car will return to the road. It feels like slow motion now… my heart is racing as the car lurches backwards. I hear a splash, it feels distant. The back left corner is the first part of the car to hit the water. I see it filling up that side of the car. My breath is knocked out of me as I panic. Logically I know I need to take a deep breath and get the door open before the car is submerged, but my instinct is to reach for the other passenger in the car. I think it is O, though I know she is not here right now. I can’t take a deep breath, the water is too cold. It is murky… green… I hear a lot of chaos around me. I’m afraid if I close my eyes I won’t open them again… I can’t breathe and I know I’m going to drown. I’m trying to look for O, but I’m starting to realize there is no reason for her to be here, or me. Everything is dark… and I can hear my own voice in my head screaming at me to open my eyes… I just need to get my eyes open and I will see that I’m fine. The noise of the water is fading and I can hear myself clearer as I wake up.
